~*~ Jill | 30 | CT~*~ I love dogs and justice ~*~ “If you are neutral in situations of injustice, you have chosen the side of the oppressor” – Desmond Tutu ~*~ “We must take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented” – Elie Wiesel ~*~ "For evil to succeed, all it needs is for good men to do nothing" —Martin Luther King Jr. ~*~
the “floor is lava” approach to explaining paranoia
like the game that kids play where you have to cross a room without stepping on the floor because the floor is lava. if you step on the floor you lose. in reality the floor is not lava, but for kids, the imaginary fear can be mixed up with real fear. experiencing paranoia as an adult is kind of like having your brain arbitrarily decide that the floor is lava. knowing that the paranoia is irrational does not necessarily make it go away
“can you explain this four year gap in your resume” yeah so [redacted] and then the outdoors became lava. funny story right
You have options. I promise you, you have options. Even if you blow up your whole life, change your name and train hop half way across the country- you still have options. So long as you are alive you have choices and chances. If you can’t see them, ask someone else. Ask a stranger or someone who loves you. Anyone not in your situation will have different a perspective. Stay safe and stay alive.
My sister killed herself on May 11th and my whole family is destroyed.
She left three kids and a husband behind.
She has an 8 year old girl who has to grow up without her.
I can’t believe any of it and I just want to punch a fucking hole in the wall.
She was too impulsive it’s just not fair.
And this will be the rest of our lives waking up every day and remembering what happened all over again. I keep thinking I’m just trapped in a long nightmare but I wake up every morning and it’s still real.
Just thinking about how bad and alone she must have felt and wondering if she thought we really didn’t care?
She is so loved by so many people it’s insane I can’t believe it.